I use to live my life by Plan B. I played it safe. Don't get me wrong, I'm a risk taker - I've traveled the world, started businesses and moved to NYC with 1 piece of luggage and no friends. Some of the best choices in my life have been the most risky but so have some of my biggest "mistakes." (I don't really believe in mistakes anymore) Now that I am nearing 30, I can predict my reaction to situations before they happen. Whenever I step into change, I become utterly terrified. Immovable. Thoughts of "what if?' flood my mind. I am paralyzed with FEAR! But the things is, you can't make decisions out of FEAR. I use to do that a lot, and inevitably it ended bad...real bad. Psychotic Boyfriends (fear of being alone), Selling my Soul at a Job I Hated (fear of poverty), A Backup Business Plan to fund my real dreams (fear of following my true desires). Taking a "risk" out of fear, sucks! It LITERALLY sucks the life out of YOU!
Taking a "risk" out of love is a whole different story. Whenever I really go for what I really want, I still get crippling anxiety (Zane the Dancing Monkey comes out and bangs his drum) but eventually the PEACE comes... and life seems to guide me along the way. As Joseph Campbell said "Follow your Bliss and the Universe will open doors for you where there were walls."
So with that I say "F*ck Plan B," FOLLOW YOUR BLISS and Trust that YOU WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THE OBSTACLES. Just because you take a risk out of love doesn't mean it isn't going to be hard. I guarantee it will be difficult and you will want to cut and run. That's why YOU MUST TRUST IN THE PROCESS! Your dreams are going to require you to scarfice. Your dreams are going to require you to have faith in yourself. Your dreams may require you to BURN ALL YOUR SHIPS! Do whatever it takes, but do it out of L-O-V-E.
As the legend goes:
"A long while ago, a great warrior faced a situation which made it necessary for him to make a decision which insured his success on the battlefield. He was about to send his armies against a powerful foe, whose men outnumbered his own. He loaded his soldiers into boats, sailed to the enemy’s country, unloaded soldiers and equipment, then gave the order to burn the ships that had carried them. Addressing his men before the first battle, he said, “You see the boats going up in smoke. That means that we cannot leave these shores alive unless we win! We now have no choice—we win, or we perish! They won. Every person who wins in any undertaking must be willing to burn his ships and cut all sources of retreat. Only by so doing can one be sure of maintaining that state of mind known as a BURNING DESIRE TO WIN, essential to success. “
I have BURNED MY SHIPS and stepped into my DREAMS! I believe that somehow, someway my short narrative film "I Fell in Love with a Psychopath" will come together. All the pieces, the people and the funding. I have already seen evidence of that. Doors have already been opened and Zane the dancing monkey is in lotus position (well sometimes). They say that "every movie made is a miracle" and I believe that now more than ever.
I said F*ck Plan B and now Plan A is finally starting to pan out. Everyday I get to wake up and follow my dreams and that is way better than what I was doing before (stuffing my face with ice cream and pouting about all the things holding me back) BURNING MY SHIPS liberated me.
With every decision there is a risk, I would rather make one that is TOTALLY worth it!