I have a confession to make...I AM NOT PERFECT. Sometimes I make mistakes. Somedays, I eat too many french fries, interrupt people mid-conversation, make an error on a project or shove my way to a prized seat on the subway. If AA had a meeting for people addicted to being "perfect" I would totally be attendance. I use to take pride in being a "perfectionist." Hell, am a virgo, doesn't it define who I am? The answer is a resounding "NO." The facade of perfectionism is just that a facade. No one, no matter how hard they try can be perfect... and what a relief!!! Life is messy, you gotta roll with it and get in there and get messy too, otherwise your just going to end up a boring, rigid old coot . And who wants to hang out with a coot? Not me.
So what does this have to do with movie making? EVERYTHING! Filmmaking is a messy and unpredictable process, no matter how hard you try YOU CANT CONTROL EVERYTHING. YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE MISTAKES and that's totally okay. Live & Learn. Mistakes are the greatest teachers. Don't be afraid of making a mistake, own it and move forward with more knowledge about your own weaknesses and strengths. Prove to yourself that you are a TOTAL BADASS no matter how many bumps in the road or pies thrown in your face. GIVE YOURSELF PERMISSION TO F*ck up! You'll be better for it. You'll be liberated from the prison of perfection and free to create with the beautiful mess before you. What are movies really about anyways? Imperfect people trying to make it in the world.
As I journey through making "I Fell in Love with a Psychopath" I know I will make a few mistakes and when the going gets tough, I'll remember the AA Serenity Prayer:
God, give me grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Coming soon... LESSON #4 Detours!